Week 4 — My Toughest Week And Why I Need To Continue

This week has been emotional, heavy, confusing, and messy. Four weeks into my six-month reset, I’m starting to understand that real change isn’t neat or organised. It doesn’t follow a checklist, and it definitely isn’t easy.

I really don’t want to be writing this blog, but, if I don’t I’ll be letting myself down even more. I promised to be honest so here it is, the truth, the failures and the wins of the week and of my first month of trying to change my life.

🌧️ This Week Was Tough

I won't sugar-coat it — this has been my hardest week so far. I have wanted to give up, but I'm still here, still committed.

📌 I’m still struggling with blogging and social media

I haven’t found my rhythm with posting, planning or even understanding the platforms and, because I feel overwhelmed, I’ve ended up avoiding it. Part of me feels frustrated because I want this blog to be consistent and meaningful — but I also want it to feel manageable, not stressful.

📌 I haven’t managed a day without alcohol

This one hurts. I set a goal and I didn’t hit it — again. And instead of asking why, I went straight into disappointment.

The truth is: alcohol has been a comfort blanket I’ve used for most of my life. Letting go of it scares me. That’s the real answer, and admitting that is a step forward, even if it doesn’t feel like one.

📌 I got a dog… and then had to let him go

I brought a dog home. I fell completely in love with him. I let myself imagine routine, companionship, and something lovely to nurture. And then I had to return him to his previous owner.

It was heartbreaking. It still is.

But even in that sadness, I can see what he brought into my life - movement, fresh air and laughter. Now I just need to find these in other aspects of my life.

📌 I had some upsetting health news

It added another layer to everything else going on. It shook my mood, my energy, and my confidence. But it also reminded me why I started this reset — because my life and health deserve attention, love, and effort.

🌤️ But There Were Positives Too

Despite everything, there were moments of progress

✔ I exercised every day

Mostly thanks to the dog, but still — I moved. I went outside. I didn’t hide. Movement helped more than I realised.

✔ I cooked from scratch (and actually enjoyed it)

Not every day, but more often. It felt good to create something nourishing, even when everything else felt chaotic.

✔ I made a poll and progressed with my first marketing campaign

A task that involved creativity, planning, and consistency and reminded me that I can complete things when I’m focused.

✔ I have several social commitments booked in

A month ago, the idea of a “social calendar” was foreign. Now I’m looking forward to some enjoyable times with new and old friends.

🌨Why I Missed Some of Last Week’s Goals

Business

I didn’t create any new pieces, not because of lack of passion, but because of lack of space. So I finally addressed it:

• I assessed my environment • Bought new storage • Cleared and reorganised my workspace

Now I have room to start, no more excuses.

Structure

I didn’t produce a timetable or to-do list because the week was chaos. I was working around a dog I then no longer had and hospital appointment almost daily. My emotions were all over the place.

Some weeks aren’t for planning — they’re for surviving, processing, and gently resetting.

🧭 Month One Reflections

Four weeks in, here’s what I see when I step back:

🌱 I have made real changes

Some big, some small — but all important. Cooking more. Being more active. Engaging socially. Reflecting more deeply. Setting intentions each week. Asking more from myself.

😔 But I’m disappointed I didn’t achieve more

This reset means a lot to me, so I hold myself to impossible standards. I expected myself to change quickly — but real growth doesn’t work like that.

🌟 My blog has made others think about their own excuses

This surprised me. Hearing that my honesty helped people reflect on their own lives shows me that this journey has value beyond me — even if it feels messy on the inside.

💛 Final Thoughts for Month One

This hasn’t been a magical transformation month. It’s been a month of honesty, disruption, trying, failing, learning, grieving, adjusting, and beginning again.

It wasn’t what I expected — but maybe it was exactly what I needed. It showed me what needs attention and how hard making changes can be. It also showed me what I’m capable of when I push myself, stay honest, and keep going even when things feel overwhelming.

📆 Looking Forward

Month 2 will be about building foundations. It’s not about creating perfection but improving my stability, structure and self belief. It’s about me wanting to feel calmer, clearer and more intentional by taking small steps and creating routines that will help me break my barriers and excuses.

🚶‍ Health & Wellbeing

Walking more, cooking more, alcohol free days, simple routines and self care.

🧠Mental & Emotional Balance

Practicing positive self-talk, tracking moods and triggers, creating a  «small wins»  journal

🗣 Social Life & Connection

Continue building on the connections made, reach out to friends more regularly,

🌳 Business & Creativity

Create prototypes and document the process, build a website, continue to study social media

💭 Blogging & Social Media

Continue to write and post weekly blog, stick to a manageable posting plan, practice consistency over perfection.

💥Coming Up Next Week

Week 4 Goals

Create & implement weekly timetables for

• Exercise

• Cooking

• Admin

• Socialising

• Blogging

• Social Media

• Business creation

Week 5 – Finding My Rhythm Again